Alien in a Foreign Land

Oops ...... I did it! After six months of hard work and struggle, I am here in this place. The place I wanted to go. The country which colonised my country for more than 200 years. I am in the United Kingdom. Eight thousand miles away from my home land, I am in a place where there is a parliamentary democracy and a constitutional monarchy comprising four constituent countries— England, Northern Ireland Scotland and Wales — with Elizabeth II as the head of the state. A country where the Crown Dependencies of the Channel Islands and the Isle of Man, formally possessions of the crown, are not part of it but form a federacy with it. A country with fourteen overseas territories, all remnants of the British Empire, which at its height encompassed almost a quarter of the world's land surface. A country whose leader Queen Elizabeth II remains the head of the commonwealth nations and head of state of the commonwealth realms. A country which is said to be developed, with the fifth largest economy in the world by nominal GDP. Dream came true. I am in such a wonderful place with an official literacy rate of 99%. Then why do I need to feel strange about being here? Ofcourse I am a stranger to the culture, the lifestyle and what not?....I am still not able to associate myself with the people here. I feel that as one of my weaknesses. Is it because of an inferiority of a colonial self or due to the fear of getting neglected by the people in the locale. I need to get over that feeling. What makes me feel like that? Is it because of the experience i had in my place of part time work. Verbal abuses like Asian with a prefix of that 'F' word I encountered during my stay here. I am not labelling all of them as racial. There is some racism here, even though there are discussions going on around migration and racism in the field of education. But there are also people who show concern. Encouraging with those motivating words 'wonderful' , 'fantastic', 'thats great' , for what ever small and simple I did. I feel good about that. Then also my Indian colonial self is not allowing me to move close to them, rather i feel comforatble with Asians and people from Africa. May be because of the fact that they share the same thoughts and carry it in their colonial self. I never find a mediocre in the place of study. To my knowledge, here the students fall in two categories Bright and the Brightest. They are very clear in their ideas, even if they are not clear they have the language, that is an advantage. The educational system trains them to think, which I found to be missing in our system of education. Everything is structured, which makes a person like me from an unstructured society where there are laws meant to be broken, feel nervous at the first instance and sometimes inferior. But this feeling has brought some constructive thoughts in me that i should do something to my Country to make it a developed one. I have some ideas which are not in its fullest form, but hope to get it structured soon. Seeking God's guidance and presence at this time to accomplish the task i have taken in a Foreign land. Strange but challenging!
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